By baby fever big time!
I find myself ooing and awwing at all of the things at Target that resemble babies.....
Everytime I hear of a new friend who's pregnant (and mind you, this has happened about 4 times in the past 2 weeks), I find myself wishing it were me.
I find myself worrying about the possibility of not being able to get pregnant. We've done things the "right way", we've grown up, gone to college, fallen in love, gotten married to our best friend and then started talking about having a baby. My mind rushes to all of the what if's about pregnancy. What if I'm one of those women who cannot carry my own child, what if we cannot get pregnant, what if something happens, what if what if what if.
I realized that these are all things that I cannot control and if God wishes for my husband and I to have a child, then we will, on his time schedule. So I'm putting an end to the worrying (or so I hope) and I'm going to leave it up to He who is in charge.
Don't get me wrong, I am so very very happy for all of my friends who have witnessed the miracle of birth and who are pregnant, because there is no better gift! So I am so happy for all of you out there who are pregnant and I feel for those of you who cannot conceive.
So, with that said! To all of you mommies out there, all of you who have children, are going to have a child or want to have children, you're all in my prayers because it is such a great miracle to be a mom and I cannot wait until I have my chance.
I know my husband will be a fantastic father. He is so enthusiastic about everything he does. Whether it's cars, engineering, speakers, boats, etc.... He's passionate and I know he will be a good teacher. So I do not worry about how our family will change once we do conceive, I am just ready and willing to accept all of the joys, sorrows and pains that come along with being a mother. I am ready for all of it! :-)
Bring it on world, I can and will survive anything that comes my way. :-)
P.S. Have you seen the baby clothes at Old Navy! I seriously wanted to buy some the other day, but thought my hubby might think it was quite odd :-)
Happy Friday everyone! Have a wonderful weekend!