Image, is it just me?

Well, its started.  The feeling I've lost control of my weight and body image.  My body is doing a miraculous thing and I am so very thankful for it each and everyday.  But I can't help but look at myself in the mirror and feel anything but good about the way I look.  I've gained about 12 lbs in 26 weeks of pregnancy.  I have no idea if that is a lot or not.

I feel so yucky about the extra weight that I have no desire to go work out.  It just takes too much effort and energy right now, is that just sad and pathetic or what? 

I should be working out everyday, yet I get home from work and definitely do not want to.  Is this normal during pregnancy?  I know I need to gain weight for the baby to be healthy, that's not the issue.  The issue is I definitely do not feel good about myself at all anymore.  Some people get pregnant and look amazing the entire time, though I suppose maybe they are feeling the same way I am?

I'm not even close to gaining as much weight as I will eventually gain during this pregnancy.  Doc says I should gain 25-30 lbs.  So, I have another 13-18 lbs to go until 40 weeks, if all goes well.  It creeps me out that every week I step on the scale, the weight goes up by at least one lb sometimes two. 

I've got to stop worrying about this, because such is life when you are pregnant.  I'm just worried that it'll be very hard to get the weight off once I put it on. 

I worked really hard to lose about 7 lbs before I got pregnant, and that put me right where I felt comfortable and now I'm trying to get comfortable with putting more than quadruple that back on!

It's a mind game, and I've got to let it go.

Sorry for the venting session, just something I've been feeling lately! 

I believe pregnancy is a wonderful, beautiful thing, I just have to remind myself of that more often (Hubby, are you out there?? :-)  hint hint! haha)